I miss so many people, it hurts to know that I lack communication with them. Today, something stabbed me in the heart. Chelsea sent me a text which I'll never forget, ever. I sat there on my couch, wondering where I went wrong. I almost cried. She means so much to me and she thinks that I think that she doesn't exist. Even typing this makes me cry so bad, cause I know I've become something I never wanted to be. I've become a pathetic unsupportive best friend. One which deserves nothing but the worst. I want to hug her, whisper to her that I love her, and let her know that she's my world. Cause, she really is.

I miss Ameera so badly too. It seems like half of me gone without them. I need my bestfriends back, just like how it was. Just the four of us, walking down the streets of Town, making so much noise that people thought IJ girls were out of their minds. I miss how we would take pictures in the toilet while Chelsea ate her Nasi Lemak eventhough it was in the toilet. I miss how we would cam-whore in the classroom with our names all put together on the whiteboard. Fuck la, I need my world to spin again.

I'm leaving in about twenty-two hours. And it doesn't help the situation whatsoever. I miss CHELSACHAMEERAUDREY.